Monthly Wrap Up: August, 2020

I haven’t done a wrap up post in quite a long time but today I thought of doing one for various reasons. One, with how slow my reading is, I don’t have any reviews scheduled for this week yet. Two, thought it would be nice to just catch up on all things, books.

Books Read in August: 6

This is the highest number of books that I have read in a single month so far this year. I have been reading 4 books at most each month apart from January and February when I read 1 book.

So here is what I read:

The Silent Dolls by Rita Herron – 3.5*

The Night Swim by Megan Goldin – 5*

Somebody’s Daughter by Carol Wyer – 4*

Left for Dead by Caroline Mitchell – 5*

The House Guest by Mark Edwards – 3*

What I Know by Miranda Smith – 3*

 

Looking Ahead:

Books that I should have read by yesterday:

I have so so many books to read. My reading has slowed down but I am still hitting my ARC request button like its going out of style. I have 6 ARCs that have already been published, Yikes. I needed to have read them by yesterday.

The Rebel Heart by Kate Hewitt

The Heart Goes on by Kate Hewitt

The Next Widow by CJ Lyons

Imperfect Women by Araminta Hall

Wonderland by Zoe Stage

Night Falls, Still Missing by Hellen Callaghan

 

ARCs being published in September:

The Wife by Shalini Boland

Flowers for the Dead by Barbara Copperthwaite

The Fragile Heart by Kate Hewitt

Their Silent Graves by Carla Kovach

One Left Alive by Helen Phifer

The Minders by John Marrs

The Coast to Coast Murders by James Patterson

Dead Woman Crossing by J.R. Alder

The Three Mrs. Wrights by Linda Keir

First Girl Gone by L.T. Vargus & Tim McBain

Yeah, I have 15 pending ARCs and 6 have already been published. My goal for this month is to read at least 6 books from this list. I have decided to be more realistic about my reading. I hope not to add more books to my TBR pile but to be honest, my fingers have a mind of their own when it comes to ARCS. I especially struggle with resisting those highly anticipated ARCs that publishers graciously bring to me via email.

Do you have any of these books on your TBR? Have you read any of them?

Life Update:

sadness

I am going through a mixed patch in my life. So much to be happy about but I seem to be equally sad. I find myself talking myself down from a ledge while constantly battling with the realization that I will one day not be able to do so.  Yes, that is how extreme my lows are. Mental health is not something that we often talk about in the society that I live in but in life’s quiet moments, I have been forced to accept that I am not well. I haven’t been well for a while and I am unsure about what to do about it. I don’t know how long I will be here if this persists.

So, this August, I plan to read and fully immerse myself in the beauty of life, hopefully change my whole outlook. I plan to live and figure out how to do so without constantly thinking of a way out. Should I lose this battle one day, I hope those in my life will one day see this blog entry and know that, I just haven’t been well for a long time and it has nothing to do with any of them. I might seem like the most jovial person most of the times but when I hit rock bottom, I hit it harder than normal. I am okay most of the time but in seasons like this, I seem to be going under. I don’t even know how to explain this.

Keep me in your thoughts and prayers.

May your August be filled with positivity and good reads!

21 Comments

  1. Oh, I feel a need to comment even though I am only a recent follower. Your post really hit me and is such a good reminder of the people, feelings and lives behind the perfect and upbeat images we post. I hope you are feeling better and that these new books help. I also have a long list of NetGalley books that I need to get to! By the way, I’m on my way over to see what you said about The Night Swim because I really want to read that. Take care. 🙂

    1. Thank you so much fod not only visiting but also commenting ❤️

      I will be okay. I’m working on it. At 8 months postpartum so ready to start working out and taking care of myself better. It is well.

      All the best with your ARCs. Mine feel overwhelming now but I have some good reads lined up so I look forward to getting to them.

      Thank you. Have a wonderful new month.

    1. Thank you. I hope you’ll enjoy Somebody’s Daughter. I really think you will. You’ve gotten through the series super fast btw 🙂

      Next Widow is my next read. Looking forward to it even more now following your comment about it.

    1. I really think you’d enjoy Kate Hewitt’s books. They do fit the genres that you normally read. I hope you get the chance to try out one of her titles soon. Thanks Jennifer.

  2. I know what it’s like being in a society/family that doesn’t discuss mental health. If possible, it might be helpful to reach out to a trusted friend, therapist, or counselor, someone to talk to. Sometimes just talking out what’s going on, the feelings and all, help immensely. I hope things will get better 🙂

    1. Thank you so much, Zeezee. I have now done so. Started talking to friends and family and was surprised by how open and supportive they were. Encouraged too. I don’t know what is going on with me, tried Googling Bipolar and Postpartum depression but that doesn’t seem like it since most days I feel totally okay and happy but then when I crush, which happens once in a blue moon, its terrible. Hoping the blues go away soon though. Thank you ❤

  3. I’m sorry to hear how bad your mental health has been. I’ve suffered on and off for years so I can really sympathise with you. I think it’s so important to try and be kind to yourself where you can, I know it’s not easy when you’re in the depths of it though. I struggle more as the seasons change to autumn and winter. I hope you enjoy the books you pick up this month and hope they offer you some escapism. Sending you a big hug. x

    1. Thank you so much, Hayley ❤

      You too are in my thoughts. Yours is one of the blogs that encouraged me to finally talk about what I am going through instead of bottling it up.

      Here is to hoping that August will be good for you too and that good reads will also come your way.

      1. Thank you. I’m so pleased that my blog helped make you feel more able to talk about your mental health. I’ve learnt over the years that being more open about it really helps. If you ever want a chat you can message me, or chat in the comments. I’m sometimes a bit slow to answer but I will always get back to you. Sending a big hug your way. x

  4. I’ll be thinking of you and praying. Life can be tough. Being a new mother is very tough. I know you said mental health is not talked about there, but is it possible to speak to a doctor about your feelings? Maybe they can do something for postpartum depression? If not, maybe a friend or confidant to just talk to? Your life is so worth living.

    1. Your comment made me consider postpartum depression. I have no clue why I am feeling what I am feeling. I started reading about bipolar yesterday but the symptoms don’t match what I am experiencing. When you mentioned PPD, I did a bit of research. For the longest time, I thought PPD shows in inability to bond with the baby so I assumed that I couldn’t have it because I love my little one and we are inseparable. However, I seem to have other symptoms such as anger, hopelessness, insomnia, depressive moods, excessive crying and the likes. I will seek the assistance that I need.

      Thank you so much ❤

      1. You’re so welcome! I’m glad my comment made sense to you and I hope it helps. There’s no shame in feeling the way you do! It was the first thing I thought of when I read your post. It’s really started to be talked about here in the US in the past couple of years, but wasn’t much before that.

  5. I’m sorry you’ve been struggling with your mental health that much! I’ll be sending lots of positive vibes your way and I hope you will find a way to be better soon. I know what it’s like not being able to talk about your mental health, so my thoughts are with you. ❤

  6. First and foremost, Diana, I hope and pray you can find a way out of the dark feelings you are experiencing. I, too, have been going through a very dark time, and one that I finally sought help from my doctor. Needless to say, she put me on a regimen of anti anxiety plus blood pressure medication and slowly I am coming back into the world I love.

    It’s important to seek medical help as I found it is often too hard for you to do it on your own. I do encourage you to find someone to help you through and pray that soon you will be on the road to recovery.

    As an aside, I loved The Coast to Coast Murders, a bit long but so good.

    1. Thank you so much for your message <3.

      I am so sorry to hear that you have been going through a hard time but glad that you did get help. I hope you are feeling much, much better now.

      I found a way out of the dark place that I was in and have been working on never going back there again. Realized that I couldn't do it on my own though. I had underestimated Postpartum Depression until it pushed me into such a dark place. Now getting help and feeling better.

      Thank you so much. I can't wait to read Coast to Coast. Have a lovely month.

  7. Diana, my heart goes out to you regarding your mental health struggles. I was going to suggest PPD because I remember having very similar feelings after giving birth to my daughter. I loved her to pieces but I felt very depressed and terrible back then. Being that I was so young at the time I wasn’t aware of PPD, but now that I’m much older (my daughter will be 31!), I’m pretty sure that’s what was going on. I’m glad you’ve been talking to family and friends about it. Life can be very hard at times, but don’t give up. Things usually do get better. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers. 🤗
    As for the books, I’m sure you’re still doing better than me. 🤦🏽‍♀️ My reading has been sporadic at best. I haven’t been physically well and it’s affected my concentration and focus, especially when I’m in a lot of pain. I’m also going through mid-life changes. 🙄 It never ends.
    I’m reading a good book by Kate Hewitt right now. She’s one of my favorite authors.
    Take care of yourself. And please keep us updated as to how you’re doing. ♥️

    1. I am so sorry to hear that you have been in pain, Laurie. I pray that you will feel better soon. Sending you hugs and prayers ❤ May September be better for you overall.

      There is still not a lot of awareness on Postpartum Depression where I am. For the longest time, I associated it with feelings of not wanting the baby but since I love my munchkin so much and we relate so well, I didn't think I could be having that at all. The past 2 weeks have generally been good so I pray that the worst is over.

      Thank you for your message and your prayers ❤

  8. Thank you, Diana. ♥️
    And no, it doesn’t have anything to do with not wanting the baby that I’m aware of. It’s just the hormone imbalances that affect your emotions. After I gave birth I was down and depressed and couldn’t figure out what was going on. I truly believe it was PPD. Now during midlife I’m experiencing something similar but it’s affecting my body more than my emotions, although I do have mood swings and have to apologize to my husband when I’m curt for no good reason. 🤦🏽‍♀️ Sometimes I cry over every little thing…even commercials!! That’s when I know the hormonal rollercoaster is in effect. 🙄
    Diana, take one day at a time and it’s very likely that in time you’ll feel much better on a more consistent basis. Let’s hope and pray that will be the case for both of us going forward. 😉Sending a big hug. 🤗

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