A little bit of sunshine is needed here…

I haven’t published a personal post here in quite a long time. I started this blog as a way to share my thoughts. It morphed into a space for sharing my bookish thoughts but today, I’ll deviate to vent a little bit.

I haven’t been reading much or blogging because I’ve been super busy at work. I changed jobs 7 months ago and it’s been an amazing, growth opportunity. However, working in an international organisation also brought me the reality of timezones which means working late most days so as to connect with my colleagues in the West Coast . It’s all been an interesting experience but yeah, books and blogging took a hit.

One of the experiences that I’ve been looking forward to with the new job is the travel. I used to travel in my 20s but my budget limited me to East Africa. You can imagine my excitement when I found out that my first International meeting would be in the UK, London. I was so excited and called everyone to let them know I’d be going to London.

I really wanted to the UK to experience the place, people and culture. I’ve never been outside East Africa. I wanted to see the streets of London and confirm whether they are as clean and pothole free like I imagine. I hear the West is clean with no garbage or polythene bags on streets. I wanted to visit River Thames and see if its as muddy as some people say or maybe that’s a rumuor to spoil the fantasy. I wanted to experience different meals and find out whether the English really do drink tea in tiny cups unlike tea lovers like me who drink tea in mugs. I wanted to catch a glimpse of a world different than what I’ve experienced in the past 37 years. As the African proverb says, He who has not travelled thinks that his mother is the best cook in the world. I want to travel to see what else is out there.

My flight was/is to be on May 12th. A week from now. In normal circumstances, I’d be so excited counting down the days. However, there is this small matter of the VISA. I’ve been waiting for a month for a response on my VISA application and I’m slowly losing faith. No flight tickets or any preps done because I can’t do that without the VISA. The other night, I had a dream that my VISA application went through and I needed to buy a suit case and get ready. Last night, I dreamt that my VISA was denied. This wait is becoming a nightmare. Maybe I put too much expectations on the trip, maybe I…. I don’t know but I’m so disheartened by the turn of events.

The VISA situation is stressful. I pray that I’ll get it in the next 5 days. If I don’t, I pray that the weight of my expectations and disappointment will not be too much. That I’ll have the serenity to accept what I can’t change.

Now the other thing on my mind is our new car, a beauty that was home for only 3 days before a drunk driver failed to slow down on bumps and the new car has been at the garage since. Can’t I catch a break?

I guess it’s just one of those seasons when the clouds stay dark and all I want is to catch a glimpse of the sun.

Morning walk photo taken at the beginning of April

19 thoughts on “A little bit of sunshine is needed here…

  1. I’m sorry you’re having a tough time at the moment. Fingers crossed your VISA is sorted quickly so that you can travel to the UK. I can confirm the Thames is brown because it’s full of silt – but I hope you experience London for yourself x

    1. Thank you so much, Barbara. I hope that I’ll get to experience London next week and if not, there’ll be another time. Thanks for confirming about River Thames. The silt making the water brown makes sense. What I heard had made it seem just dirty which seemed at odds with what I imagine London to be.

  2. I’m a firm believer that what is meant to be will be. I hope your VISA comes through but if not, there will be another opportunity, I’m sure. London isn’t going anywhere. Hang in there, Diana! xx

    1. Thank you, Eva ❤. I am trying to enbrace that. It won’t be the end if London doesn’t happen this time. Que sera sera.

  3. Yikes! I’m sorry about your car. I’m glad that it sounds like you’re okay otherwise. Your new job sounds exciting. I’ll pray your Visa gets situated in time!

    1. Thanks Deannna ❤️. Yeah, it’s a great job. World Vision International has truly changed my life. I can’t even explain the growth, opportunities and the chance to make a difference in the lives of children.

      1. Wait! World Vision? I think they have a headquarters in Federal Way, WA right? If so, I live about 5 miles from there. I’ve driven by their building a bunch of times. But I can’t remember if they moved in recent years.

        1. That is still the US HQ. The founder is American and US used to be the main office although the main office is now in UK. But yes, the US HQ at Federal Way is still there. If I ever come for a meeting there, I am so going to reach out to you 🙈

  4. Oh, Diana. I am so sorry that you have had some tough times and are looking for the sun. How frustrating dealing with the government for your VISA. I hope it comes through for you, but I like the fact that you will have other opportunities. Wow, World Vision, such a great organization. I also hope your car is repaired soon.

  5. Aww man. I know how stressful it can be to wait on a visa app to come through. Hoping the clouds clear and the sun begins to shine through soon. Sorry about the new car as well.

  6. Diana, we have a few things in common regarding this post. I haven’t had the opportunity to read or post much either due to my busy schedule lately. I miss it terribly.
    I love drinking tea and have dreamed about what it’s like in the UK. I always tell people if I could choose one place to visit it would be England. I’m more fascinated by the English countryside because I’m originally from NYC and picture London being similar to that. I’d still like to experience it, but my dream is the countryside. 🥰
    When I was about your age we had a shiny new car that was slammed into on the street while it was parked. The car was about three weeks old and was in the shop for a while, too. We lived in NY at the time. The driver never even stopped to take responsibility.
    These are the unfortunate trials of life, and even though they bring distress for a time, you’ll get through them. I hope your VISA gets sorted out, but if it doesn’t, there’ll likely be other opportunities in future. When I’ve gone through various trials in my life I thought it was the worst thing I could ever experience at the time. And now they’re distant memories for the most part. I almost forgot about our car incident until I read your post.
    You’re going to be okay. Things will work out and hopefully one day they’ll all be a distant memory for you, too. 😉
    Hoping all the very best for you my blogger friend. 🤗

    1. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences, Laurie. Its interesting just how similar our experiences are. Our car was hit by a drunk driver. She was taken into the station and all. However, she was somehow released without any charge or compensation to us. Luckily we have insurance but the process is just slow. The car has been at the garage/shop for 3 weeks now. I hope we get sorted soon and this will all be a distant memory like your case is for you.

      My VISA was approved and I just picked it a few hours ago. I can’t believe how stressed I was about it all. I didn’t even get sleep yesterday. I received the passport, took a look at the sticker and walked over to security and asked. ‘is this it?’ lol. I am so grateful for this though and the timing is just perfect as I am expected to travel in a week.

      Thank you so much Laurie ❤ I will share about my trip someday and my drinking of English tea 🙂

      1. I’m so happy it all worked out for you, Diana. ☺️ I thought it would. 😉
        The injustice. How could the drunk driver walk away free without having to compensate you?!! We both know things in the world can be unfair. When they are we have to leave it in God’s hands to preserve our peace of mind.
        One thing I’ve learned over the years is to not worry about things we can’t change. It doesn’t help our situation and the stress worsens whatever we’re dealing with. If I’m sick and I worry the stress makes my illness worse and it doesn’t change my condition. And if things aren’t as bad as I thought I’ve worried for nothing. It’s easier said than done I must admit, but it truly is beneficial.
        Have a safe and successful trip, Diana. All the best to you. I look forward to hearing about your trip when you get back. 🤗

  7. Reading the comments, I can see that you’ve gotten your visa! Hooray! I’m so glad for you. I hope you have a wonderful trip. Can’t wait to hear your impressions. And I hope your car is fixed soon.

    1. Thank you so much, Laila. I got the VISA and spent 10 days in the UK. Just got back home yesterday. I will post an update on the trip but it was definitely a dream come true. Still feels surreal.

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